After living for 70 years, what I think about now is how happy I am to have survived 70 years. It's not that I want to thank anyone in particular, but I want to be happy that I'm living a normal and comfortable life.
This may be the best time in my life. You can live as you please without receiving instructions from anyone. It's not boring either. However, this does not mean that you will be physically and mentally fulfilled and full of energy.
Because there's no need to force yourself. There's no need to try hard. Having lived for 70 years, I may never have imagined that I would be in the state I am in now. It may be difficult to imagine a normal relaxed state where nothing special happens.
You can imagine a moment of trance while soaking in the open-air bath and looking out at the moonlit night. If that were the case, I might be able to draw a picture, but even if it doesn't turn into a picture, the state I am in now is probably the only way I can find infinite peace.
The other day, 80s a grandmother said Hikaru Genji is as my best lover and now is the happiest she is. Maybe that kind of state will come naturally as she grows older. In my case, it might be a little too early. So, as I get older, will I feel happier than I am now? I'm looking forward to what's to come...
