Although half my life had risen and fallen irregularly, by now it just had been nothing but ordinary, neither good nor bad. It takes something extraordinary to be satisfied with the ordinary. It can't be helped that I feel unsatisfied with my ordinary daily life.
harf my life had risen and fallen irregularly, by now it just had been nothing but ordinary, neither good nor bad. It takes something extraordinary to be satisfied with the ordinary. It can't be helped that I feel unsatisfied with my ordinary daily life.
There were still some changes yesterday. There was a delicious soba restaurant in a place called Bessho, which was a little further into the mountains of Kanazawa, and I ate handmade soba with his wife for lunch. I ordered the duck nanban and my wife ordered the wild vegetable soba. There were six pieces of duck meat and it was tender. The wild vegetables seemed to have been picked from nearby mountains. The soup stock was delicious, and I added some soba-yu to the teacup and drank two cups.
Satisfied, I got out, went from Bessho to Guruguru Hiroba in Okuwa along the Saigawa River, parked the car, and took a walk along the Saigawa riverside. I passed people running, walking, and strolling at just the right distance. Time was passing slowly. I took a walk for about an hour, bought a cake, and headed home. I ate strawberry pie with coffee. I always buy this strawberry pie because the strawberries, which are a little softer than jam-like on top of the thin pie crust, go well with the fresh cream.
Even though we spent the afternoon like this, I found myself feeling somewhat unfulfilled by the end of it. "I don't know why. Maybe my heart has become extravagant?" he muttered. I was hoping that the drama-like events would come back.
ぼくの人生は多少の振幅はあっても、今となっては良くも悪くもなく平凡そのものだった。平凡に満足するには非凡なものがいる。平凡な日常に満たされない思いが募ってくるのは致し方ないのだろう。
昨日はまだ変化があった方だ。金沢の少し山の方に入った別所というところに美味しい蕎麦屋があって、昼は妻と一緒に手打ち蕎麦を食べた。ぼくは鴨南蛮で妻は山菜そばを注文した。鴨肉は六切れも入っていて柔らかだった。山菜は近くの山から採って来たものだと思われた。出汁が美味しく、湯飲みに蕎麦湯を足して二杯飲んだ。
満足して出て、別所から犀川沿いの大桑にある「ぐるぐる広場」まで行って車を止め、犀川河川敷を散歩した。ランニングやウォーキングや散歩をする人にちょうど良い間隔ですれちがった。時間はゆっくり流れていた。一時間ほど散歩して、ケーキを買って帰宅した。ストロベリーパイをコーヒーと一緒に食べた。このストロベリーパイは、薄いパイ生地の上にのったジャム状より少し柔らかめのイチゴが、生クリームとよく合うので、いつも買っているものだ。
こんな風に午後を過ごしたのに、ぼくは終わってしまうとなんだか満たされていないのに気づいた。「どうしてだろう。心が贅沢になってしまったのだろうか。」と呟いた。ドラマのような出来事がもどって来て欲しい、と思った。
